sesuatu yang tak terjangkakan....

xsangka aku menonton cite ni terlalu lambat....

cite die best giler woo...

sweet gler smpi senyum xlepas ah dr bibir ak...

dorg mmg sweet abes... :D

eventho ak tonton agk lmbt tp ak terkilan r ngn ending cite die...

npew la dorg xkawen jerk.. kan lagi comel..

ending die ngn go eun chan jd barista jerk...

choi han kyul plak head over heals pasal go eun chan...

hahha..

but whatever... citer ni mmg mantop!!!!

my little journal (-__-)"

my little journal....

everyone has their own little journal...

and i have u for my journal...

i'm not the type to jot down everything

that happened in my life on ur big n wide chest..

but when i can't hold 'em together inside of me..

i know i can rely on u dear...

my little journal...

i have a secret to tell u...

i've fall in love with this guy...

n i love him so much that i wud cry when i'm reminded of his laugh..

when i'm reminded of how he makes me cry..

when i'm reminded of how he smile eventho i haven't 

had a chance to see it live....

but i did fall in love with this guy...

who lived far away that i can't reach him now...

only phone calls can soothe my bleeding heart...

just hearing his sweet voice cure my night...

and put a smile on my face everytime his mood is right...

my little journal....

last night was the biggest pain in my life..

as how the person i love cursed my moms life...

as how he called me badly just because i'm telling whats right...

accused me of what i haven't done...

shoved me off like i'm a dog not worthwhile...

reminding me how ugly am i...

throw harsh words that makes my heart broke in thousands piles...

shattered my feelings just for a simple guy...

who was always a friend of mine....

my little journal....

i know u can't answer me anyhow...

but i feel lucky to always have u by myside now...

to tell u the truth...

i gave everything up just for this guy..

whose a friend of mine tell me that its not worthed for me to cry..

for how he treats me with those jealousy in his eyes...

and madness when i tell he's wrong everytime...

and how he tells me that he's sickened by me time by time...

he never listen to my words..

he never care about how i feel..

he once soothe me when i cried my lungs out for a night..

(for that im thankful for his by myside)

he hears me but does he listen to what i'm saying...

he hears me but does he understand the underlying meaning..

he hears me but does he believe in my doings...

he listen to others while i'm his girlfriend..

he worship others just because i'm un ugly duckling...

he praises others just because i'm not good enough for him...

how cruel this feelings i feel that is so hard to bare with..

feels like everything around me is not moving anymore...

i have done wrong too...

i never said that i'm good...

but at least i tell the truth when he asked me to..

i tried my best not to tell those words that can break him into two..

nor tell what others saying about him..

i don't want him to hurt badly..

i just want him to be happy..

i just want him to smile only for me..

i just want him to laugh because of me..

i just want him to look at me...

i just want him always with me...

we broke up several times...

still i know he'll come back to myside..

he shove me off like worthless dog..

still i care for his well-beings tho..

am i that stupid for keeping this up..

while he never tries hard to see who i are...

am i that fool who walks beside him everytime he cast me out..

while he never try to reach deep into my heart...

i rather be the stupid who cares for others feelings

 than be called scums for what im doing...

i rather be called the fool who walks beside him 

than seeing him tumbling with no one near him...

i'm not a good girl, i'm not..

it's just my nature that i acted in the way i did..

i never build a good relationship even with those who raised me up..

but always i care for them and never give up..

the same goes to this situation..

i hate myself for not being able to hate others...

i hate myself when i can't fulfill my words..

i hate myself badly that sometimes i hurt..

but i'd rather be hurt then be the one who's hurt others..

people tell me that im foolish 

but i prove them wrong...

i'm not a foolish girl..

its just the love is so strong...

and no matter how...

i just want YOU to know..

that no matter what happens between us from now on..

u can always rely on me..

that my shoulders will always be YOURS..

my ears is all YOURS..

i will STAND right behind u when there's NO ONE..

i will HOLD u tight when ur SAD...

i will CUDDLE u in the night when ur SCARED..

i will PULL u back up when ur DOWN...

i will never GIVE UP until so tell me UR DONE...

Cinderella's Sister MV 1 It Has To Be You - Yesung (eng sub)

lyrics :

Today, i wander in my memory

I’m pasing around on the end of this way

You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more

I’m losing my way again

I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more

that i want to see you and hold you more

It can’t be if it’s not you

i can’t be without you

it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this

it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

yes because i’m just in love with you

i cannot send you away one more time

i can’t live without you

it can’t be if it’s not you

i can’t be without you

it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this

it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

yes because i’m just in love with you

my bruised heart

is screaming to me to find you

where are you?

can’t you hear my voice?

to me…

if i live my life again

if i’m born over and over again

i can’t live without you for a day

You’re the one i will keep

you’re the one i will love

i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

 

 

 

.....

if only u're reading this... i would be very thankful but unfortunately... u're not reading this and u wud never know that this is what i feel... being around u make me feel warm and secure... being around u make me want u to be there and never let me go... cuz u r the one who always succeeded in putting away my tears long before they reach my eyes... u are the one who succeeded in making me smile at the thought of u... u r the one who can make me laugh at every words u say... n u r the one that can make me cry when im thinking about the time when u will be far away and not knowing when will u come back to me and fill my heart like this again... it was always u who saved me from the situation and it was always u who has saved me from these people around me and it is u who has soothed this heart ache long before it bleed... at the thought of u my smile automatically turned on and the pain suddenly dissapear... i just hope that that was the last time u'r not around but u've said it that u can't always be there but u will always return to me... i just wonder how long would u take for u to return again... 

i really missed all the things that had happened in our past... i still remember how u tell urself not to be scared just to help these two helpless girls... just how u were scred to death if u fell and hurt urself... and how u was there by myside when i need to run from the ruckuss made by all of those people.... 

and now u're here again after sometimes... and the cycle is there... u r here when i need someone to lean on to even when im not leaning on u yet i have all u ears for me, just for me... i have all ur precious times just make me feel happy even when u're tired... i really like u... i really like ur presence near me... i really like the way u make me feel happy just by telling those little lies to make me feel better... please never be far away from me... never be apart... always be here please... onegai... cuz i don't think i can stand strong without u telling me what should i do...

i wonder why.....

i keep on wondering why... for the past few days... when i watch a story... it keeps on telling me that something in that story reminds me of something but i don't know what it was or what it is... but everytime... everytime i look at the girls, i feels like both of them are me in a sense and i can't stop crying for no reason... my tears keep on rolling down these cheeks and i don't know how to stop it...

the princess : she just wanted some one to comfort her in her dusky days and nights that she always feels at lost and there's no one to try to understand how she is and who she is and the way to express her feelings is by crying - a crying baby.... in me somehow i wanted the same things... i wanted someone just to hold me tight and say that im okay... i'll be okay... and nothing can harm me in one sense but there's no one to tell me those words that i wanted to hear and there's no one for me to hold me tight and tell me the words that i longed to hear....


the sister : she is just someone who feels that she has to pay all the debt to the person who had helped her so much and she wouldn't want to build a bridge to link her heart and the person's heart so that it wouldn't be painful for her when the time comes and she had to just leave the person without any feelings of guilty. she fought with herself, hard enough to make her suffer on her own and she doesn't seem to want anyone to get to know her.... and somehow, i've been doing the same thing... not letting anyone to know me better so that it would be easier for me when i think that i shouldn't be there anymore... i've lock my heart inside out so that not even a sigle person could rest there and try to unfold the secret of me... of who i am... and what i made of...

both the character in the story reminded me of myself and how i shouldn't suppose to act those ways... i wanted someone to just hold me tight in their arms and tell me that i would be okay but somehow i avoided those feelings but comforting myself and lock myself away from those who cares about me...

what should i be doing now... i don't know.. but it would be nice if i had someone to hug me and say that its ok... that i would be ok... and i would be fine for now... but i wouldn't dare to do such things so i hold myself back from doing so and just let my mind think on her own that i would be okay.. but its not comforting me enough... so... i just don't know how to get back on my sense and stop thinking about these things anymore... i just want to feel secure in my own way again but somehow i don't know how...

gomenasai....

gomenasai for being the burden to all....

gomenasai for never keep the promises....

gomenasai for never be there when needed....

gomenasai for always cause u trouble....

gomenasai for never listen to a word u said....

gomenasai.... gomenasai... gomenasai.....

mood: hyper happy

setelah sekian lama xde isi untuk menulis kat blog aku yg tah pape ni kn... hari ni tetbe trasa nk menulis lak kt blog ni... hehe.... sbb mood hyper happy..[bleh plak sekerat intro aku ilang aduyai....]

[blh plak mcm tu je kan story aku]

smbg2... hehe....

ok2... ekteli la kn...
aku ni ade la minat tgk sorg budak yg da dewasa ni yg kje under one company ngn aku tp laen2 outlet la... ktrg terserempak byk kali tp aku hanya taw nama samaran die [tu pon kes die pakai name tag budak yg da benti kje] so aku konfiden la tu nama die.... last few days aku beranikan diri mintak no fon die tp xde lak niat nk kontek2 die... maklom la sedor diri xlawo [ wakakakaka] so wat simpanan hari benti nnt je la [ hehe... ayat org pasrah n sedaw diri ] but tanpa ku sangka, die plak mengecall aku... huhu~~ sggup tu call aku mlm2 bute lak tu... huhu~~... tu je kot cite die... happy sbb die call je... wakakakaka [ happy sebab die call je... bangang xbangang aku nih ]

K'naan - Wavin' Flag (Official Lyrics Video)

mggu ni dua hari berturut-turut aku saket hati dgn org yg berbeza.... entahla... berita gembira yang ak nk smpikan, berita buruk yg aku trima... dan akhirnya aku yang menangis tatkala mereka bergelak ketawa bergembira.... bodohnye seorang manusia ni kan??? sedih2... dan airmata masih mengalir... knp harus begini.... penat aku menunggu... penat menanti.. tp apa yang aku dapat?? saket hati?? erm... salah siapa?? entahla... aku xnk salahkan sesiapa pn... kerna mungkin aku yg bersalah... tp dgn segala kesabaran aku menanti.... akhirnya airmata yang menemani... pedihnye..... utk ape aku menanti??? utk ape??? utk menangis lagi dan lagi dan lagi??? mane lagi harus aku pergi??? semua yang aku tujui adalah jln mati..... aku penat.... penat menjadi aku... penat menjadi diri aku... penat menjadi siapa aku... aku penat.... aku perlukan rehat.... aku sbnrnye xtaw ape yg aku perlukan... mgkn racun tikus mahupun ubat tdo yg berlebihan....

blah blah blah bla blah
Whoo!

You were everything I wanted.
You were everything a girl could be.
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down.
Hate is a strong word.
But I really really really don't like you.

I really don't like you.

Thought that everything was perfect
Isn\'t that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you

Now that it\'s over you can't hurt me
Now that it\'s over you can't bring me down

Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh oh oh
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh oh oh

All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hey!

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
(I really don't like you)
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
(Liked about you)
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
(Hey!)
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you

Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh
I really don't like you
Oh... oh... oh... oh oh oh 

 

hari yg penuh dengan berbulu-buluan~~

post kali ni byk melibatkan amarah terhadap satu makhluk ALLAH ni yg mmg buat aku berbulu jek ngn perangai die.. bajet bagus jek... andai la boleh jual manusia ni kan mmg da lama aku jual die kt thailand... duk mengata org tapi xsedar diri yang die tu bukan bagus sgt... bajet jek lebih... mulut kalo bercakap semua nk lebat!!

org ckp leklok xleh nk ckp leklok then kalo org wat salah berlagak mcm kingkong... mmg aku benci la die ni.. menyampah meluat semua ade... bab org semua nye buruk xptot buat la ape lancau la... mmg saket hati la ngn pangai die ni... pasni mmg xde lagi r aku nk backup2 die.. p mamposss sama die la... selesaikan sendiri la ape mslh die... mmg nang cibai....

satu hari yang membosankan

hari ni hari yg paling bosan dalam sepanjang hari bosan dalam kalendar HARI-HARI BOSAN tahunan ku... hahaha.... erm.. paling bosan bile ngadap laptop sampai subuh tanpa ada bnd yg nk buat then mula melihat2 video yg mengarut2...( katun, trailer lame2, or lifestory artis kanak2 yg comel and stuff like that) bosannnn.... SMS?? hahaha... hari ni hari tanpa SMS... xde yg sms mahupon diSMS... poket mulai kosong, hati mulai kering jiwa mulai kemarau n semuanya bagaikan debu2 bertaburan.. wakakakaka.....

anyway... eventho hari ni hari yg paling membosankan (mlm) but then ptg nnt aku akan berjumpa dgn long lost contact (manusia opkos).. seingat aku after SPM aku lgsg lost cntct ngn die... hahaha... bajet nk tgk wayang tp kt wayang byk citer sequel.. xbest!!!! then plan nk minuom kopi... xtaw venue kt mana.... so.. plg kurang jmp dulu baru decide la kot nk jmp n buat pe... wakakakaka....

kesengalan hidop pon semakin meningkat bile jiwa mulai dilanda kebosanan melampau dan apabila tiada lagi org yg sudi SMS mahupun lepak or bile semua dah pulang ke kg halaman... hahahaha...... so solution terbaik... duk dpn laptop ngadap semua ape yg blh ngadap... hahahaha

perjuangan masih belom berakhir....

final paper da tibe and aku tidak bersedia fizikally mahupon mentally... aku hanya menanti untuk menghadapi paper terakhir utk sem ni... penat menanti semuanya berakhir namun perjuanganku masih belom tamat... demam tatkala menghadapi exam satu perkara baru dlm hidup ku sbg seorang pelajar.... erm... 

satu lagi perjuangan yang belom berakhir adalah perjuangan dlm kehidupan... entahlah... mgkin terlalu byk silap yg telah dikecapi sehingga mana benar dan mana palsu tidak lagi dikenalpasti.... hidup dlm keadaan gini sungguh mencabar.... penat yang teramat.....

ah... terlalu lama dada blog terabai... dan hari ni... ada sesuatu yg xbest terjadi... sedih.. tp apakan daya... semoga segalanya lancar belaka bg semua.... aminnn.... dan aku? LARI!!!!

hanya suatu pertanyaan yang tak terluahkan

duduk aku disini menanti, menanti satu jawapan yang belom pasti.... adakah engkau sedang mencuba untuk melupai atau pun engkau cuba untuk menjauhi? andai benar sangkaan ku, jgn lagi kau mencuba untuk menghampiri kerana sakit terhiris hati ini pabila ditegur sepi... merindui dirimu suatu yang pasti namun pada siapa harus aku nyatakan? hanya angin malam yang memahami... andai engkau benar ingin menjauhi, pergilah segala yang terjadi akan tersisip kemas di sudut hati kecil ini... dan aku akan kekal setia menjadi perindu merindui suatu sinar yang pernah menerangi malam-malamku.... kehadiran ku sendiri aku tidak pasti apakah tujuan nya.. apakah haluannya... namun akan ku teruskan sehingga penghujung jalan...

yang terbaik aku doakan buatmu... semoga kebahagiaan yang kau idamkan menjadi milikmu... aku? aku insan hina... aku insan biasa... aku hanya makhluk yang punya kelemahan kekurangan juga kekhilafan... maafkan aku diatas segala kelukaan yang terbekas dihati mu... aku tau hatimu hati kristal... begitu juga aku... namun kristal hatiku telah lama berkecai... untuk menjaga hatimu, aku tidak punya keberanian... diharapkan hati kristalmu akan menemui insan yang dapat mengilapkan dan menjaganya sebaik mungkin... aku cumalah satu fasa dalam kehidupanmu... 

selagi aku masih menghirup udara segar... selagi mataku celik dan melihat alam sekeliling.. selagi kotak suara masih berfungsi... selagi telinga masih mendengar bait-bait kata... aku akan tetap berdiri teguh dibelakang mu... itulah janji ku... sehingga kau menemui kekuatan baru... aku? aku cumalah satu persinggahan andai itu perumpamaan yang betul... aku hanya insan yang tiada kepentingan... aku hanya insan yang... kau sendiri pun tahu... 

sebanyak terima kasih sekali lagi aku ucapkan... setinggi penghargaan aku hadiahkan kepada mu diatas segala budi yang kau taburkan...... tidak mugkin terbalas segala kebaikan yang telah engkau berikan suatu masa dulu... berat untuk aku melepaskan mu... hati ini masih memerlukan kasih sayang dari mu... diri ini masih merindui belaian tanganmu.... aku masih merindui gelak tawa dan usikan manjamu.... namun andai itu pintamu... aku tidak mampu untuk berkata apa....

suatu kesakitan hati....

entah mana silapnya aku hari ni... tengah syok menaip blog tadi tetibe pc aku padam... dan lagi sakit bile penat lelah aku selama hampir dua jam padam macam tu je... trase macam nak maki orang je tapi mane ade orang kt umah ni... hahaha... adess... trase biol je paleotak aku ni..... bongok betol la.... sakit hati sakit hati.....

akhirnya... [>_<]!!

setelah hampir beberapa jam berteleku dengan tekun, kusuk and tawaduk akhirnya aku berjaya menyempurnakan sesuatu kekeliruan mengenai blogging... hahaha.... terbukti atas beberapa perkara yang aku ni agak kurang bijak utk mengexplore dunia blogging ni.. hahaha... sengal rupanya aku ni....

well... atlis aku da berjaya.. hahahaha...

erm.. bersama blog post ni aku nk bg satu luahan yang aku baru je lakarkan pada helaian kertas dan aku pindahkan ke muka blog.. hahaha

" i want the night to end slowly and the day to end as fast as it could be, i want to enjoy the moment and i want it always be..."

erm... aku tahu akan ada yang memahami...

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in the middle of nowhere i need to make a choice,
and i choose to be here and no regret,
but things changed totally when i started the journey,
i never thought that life would turn itself from me,
how could i live this way?

i've been wandering around since then,
i can't seem to find my way back there,
and that was when i first found you,
you walked with me through though you know that there's somewhere else you need to go,
i thanked you not enough maybe,
that's why it's like this

the light came to me but it was for a while,
then darkness came and swallow me up,
i'm once again lost my way,
i can't seem to find the path,
and here i stay waiting, but no hope is given,

i am missing you dearly that tears keep on falling,
how could i shed them away when i'm missing you?
how could i make them go away when your pictures on my face?
how could i stop these feelings when all i see is you?
how could i get rid of these feelings when ur not around anymore?
how could i get rid of these feelings when i don't know how?
how could i? tell me how?

i just wanted to be with you if only that would do,
i just wanted to see you for once,
come n cuddle me,
shed these tears away because i can't stand it no more,
just this once i asked then believe me i'll never be there again,
i'll never bother you again,
i'll never exist,

help me this once then i'll find my way back to the beginning and never to the end.

untitled

You fill up my senses
like a night in the forest
like the mountains in springtime,
like a walk in the rain
like a storm in the desert,
like a sleepy blue ocean
you fill up my senses,
come fill me again.

Come let me love you,
let me give my life to you
let me drown in your laughter,
let me die in your arms
let me lay down beside you,
let me always be with you
come let me love you,
come love me again.



You fill up my senses
like a night in the forest
like the mountains in springtime,
like a walk in the rain
like a storm in the desert,
like a sleepy blue ocean
you fill up my senses,
come fill me again.

this love

I could see it in your eyes
tasted it in our first kiss
Stranger in this lonely town
Saved me from my emptiness

You took my hand
Remember you told me it would be okay
I trusted you to hold my heart
But fate is pulling me away from you

Chorus:
Even if I leave you now
and it breaks my heart
Even if Im not around
I wont give in,I can't give up

On this love,you've become a piece of me
It makes me sick to even think
of mornings waking up alone
Searching for you in my sheets,Don't fade away


On this love,I cant just lose you,no
On this love,I never felt anything like this before
(like this love)

Tell me the truth,no matter what we're going through!
Will you hold on too?

I wont give in,I cant give up

On this love...

its you - super junior

It’s You (너라고)

ENGLISH

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, I just want you
Even if you ask again, I just want you
You might already have a different lover
But there’s nothing I can do
I can’t turn back now Oh
The moment I caught your eye
The moment you drove a nail into my heart
Regretfully, I chose you
Yes, it’s you

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you

I don’t need any words, I just want you
Even if you say it’s too late, I just want you
I know this love is wrong
But I can’t give up, I can’t let go oh, oh
I call you again with my cold lips
Searching, I call out for you hotly
You don’t reply, but I will still wait for you

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

For me, it’s you, it’s you, I
(Why don’t you know, why don’t you know)
For me, it’s you, it’s you, I

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

buat [dia]

hanya dirimu yang selalu difikiran ku,

xpernah ada habisnya,

benar dirimu yang selalu ku inginkan,

belaian dari tangan mu,

mungkin hanya dirimu,

harta yang paling terindah,

dalam perjalanan hidup ini,

setiap denyut nadiku,

hanya ada kamu,

mungkin hanya dirimu,

indah nya sangat berbeza,

ku sgt merinduimu,

ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku,

mungkin kau adalah yang terakhir,

tak mungkin akan ada pengganti,

hanya dirimu yang aku mahu.

dan aku sgt menyayangimu.....

[YOU]

today is one of the happiest day in my life!!
its been a long time since i feel this way....
ah.. im so glad yet grateful for what i've got....
the news is that this is my first time getting full mark for my quiz!!
thanx to sir hady for giving me this happiest moment in mylife :D

last week i have had a quiz and i was the latest person to get to class and didn't know that a quiz would be held that day...
erm..
we all need to come out with a poem by examining a stimulus given by sir hady...
and here goes my poem :D

do you know what its like to be only you?
and you know nothing you can do,
you're there but no one notice you,
and you laugh for what you once do.

in the darkest night the cold rush to you,
as if the reaper is coming to get you,
and those with light never bother to rescue,
but you're still there with nothing else but you.

you used to raised ten of your own,
from the size of your palm to what they are now,
from the time they are empty to the time they are filled,
you are there,still,just for them.

you used to lose your hair for they have done,
but you manage to get half a nelson on.
for they are active and you are on your own,
but now you are floating following the current.

the holes in you have grow their number,
but those were the holes which keep you stronger than others,
and those were the holes which make you suffer,
but still and still you are stronger than others.

now you've decayed and those ten never seems to care,
as they have their own ten and they are forgetting
that they used to be one of those ten but never have a clue,
that you know the ten better, better than they do.

the world cries because you are leaving soon,
and there's no pray following you,
as i know you are scared and who don't feel the same too?
when you're eyes wide open but there's no move.

now you're ten doesn't have a clue,
just complaining about you,
don't they get it one day they feel the same too!
and i'm ashamed because you're ten never bother about you!!

lirik Nidji Sang Mantan :
dulu aku kau puja
dulu aku kau sayang
dulu aku sang juara
yang selalu engkau cinta
kini roda telah berputar

kini aku kau hina
kini aku kau buang
jauh dari hidupmu
kini aku sengsara
roda memang telah berputar

mana janji manismu
mencintaiku sampai mati
kini engkau pun pergi
saat ku terpuruk sendiri

akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan

sakit teriris sepi
ketika cinta telah pergi

akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan

mana janji manismu
setia sampai aku mati
kini engkau pun pergi
saat ku jatuh dan sendiri

mana janji manismu
mencintaiku sampai mati
kini engkau pun pergi
saat ku terpuruk sendiri

akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan
akulah sang mantan

mana janji-janjimu

duniawi

arghh.. duniawi...
kenapa duniawi ni begitu keji?
kenapa manusia harus saling menyakiti?
kenapa kita masih lagi begini?

haruskah aku mengerti?
haruskah aku peduli?
haruskah aku begini?
arghh duniawi..............

hmm..
sakit datang lagi..
sakit kian menghantui..
sakit adakah engkau mengerti???

hati pedih...
hati perih...
hati jerih....
hati.... kenapakah begini????

dunia... dunia...
bilakah berakhirnya dunia???
ataw bilakah dunia kehidupanku akan berakhir???
sakit ye sakit... tp siapakah yg mengerti?
siapakah yg memahami????
siapakah diri ini???

ahh... sakitnye...
kepala...
berhentilah berdenyut..
jantung...berhentilah berdegup..
nafas... berhentilah menghirup...
hati... berhentilah membenci...
jiwa... jgnlah dikau begitu keji...
nuraini... serahlah diri.....

.::. kekecewaan sebenar .::.

5th march 2010

aku ke mid valley dgn niat utk menonton wayang "Alice in Wonderland" tp harapan tggl harapan apabila tiket sold out.... arghh.... sedih siut.... erm... apekan daya... aku mmg xberdaya.... sedih n kecewa bercampor baur... ntah bile la baru dapat tgk cite best tu.... :(

pergi dgn dia lagi buat aku ke'frust'an kot cuz die sggop penat2 tman ak kesana tp kecewa but thanx to him cuz he was there by myside at the time that i really need him... hmm... he bought me a tag but i cant post the pix here yet cuz lappy ade masalah serangan virus kronik... kecewa lagi... sedihnye menjadi aku....

buat sang teman

Biarkan berlalu
Semua kepedihanmu
Lelapkan matamu
Biarkan mimpi membawamu
Ke mana kau mahu
Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku
Siang kan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Biarkan berlabuh tirai kisah semalam
Yang indah itu ada padamu
Dengan setiap impian dan harapan
Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku
Siangkan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Kan ku menjadi arjuna dalam mimpi-mimpimu
Kan ku panah tepat ke jiwamu atas nama cintaku
Pari-pari ku utus bawa kau ke sini lagi
Terhapus semua air mata dengan senyuman

Selamat malam sayang
Selamat malam kasih
Selamat malam sayang
Woooo...

Selamat malam sayang
Selamat malam kasih
Selamat malam sayang
Woooo...
Tidurlah sayangku
Siangkan tiba bercahaya
Bermula baru semua untukmu

Selamat malam
Tidurlah sayangku

bUat insan yang bernama teMan (^_^)!!

buat teman

maafkan ak andainya ada kesilapan yang telah dilakukan

maafkan aku andai ada mengguris segenap perasaan

maafkan aku andainya kehadiran aku hanya satu persinggahan

maafkan aku andainya perkenalan kite merupakan satu kesilapan

teman,

aku mengerti segala kesakitan yang ko rasai walaupun aku xmemahami

aku berkongsi pengalaman yang yg sama yang sering disalah erti

aku memahami setiap kedukaan yg datang menyinggahi

aku mencuba untuk terus memahami dan memenuhi janji-janji

teman,

aku xpernah merasakan perkenalan kita satu kesilapan

aku xpernah merasakan segala yang terjadi untuk memisahkan

aku xpercaya yang diriku akan tetap menyerah hanya satu perselisihan

aku percaya yang kau dan aku merupakan kembar berbeza zaman

dan percayalah.....

aku mengerti setiap kesilapan harus diperbetulkan

dan aku sedang mencuba...

aku tahu setiap yang terjadi harus ada pengakhiran

tapi aku masih belom bersedia untuk kehilangan........

aku faham yang setiap yang datang akan pergi

tapi aku ingin menikmati sebelom tamat tempohnya.....

aku mengerti yang dirimu tela memiliki dan dimiliki

dan izinkan aku untuk bersandar buat seketika waktu..........

dan andainya aku pergi dahulu

'aminkan' aku agar aku tidak menghantui

benarkan aku pergi sekiranya mati yang menanti

kenanglah aku dalam setiap doa mu....

dan yang paling penting.....

kekal lah kamu dengan caramu yang amat aku senangi....

p/s: buat teman yang memahami.......... maaf andai ada yang tertinggal ditgh jalan taw :p